Looking deep within

Dear God, a surge of raw emotions crept out of nowhere as I was doing my household chores. Pain seemed like a sharp sword plunging into my chest and blood of regret, remorse, shame, guilt, anger and disappointment is seeping uncontrollably. A fog soon develops in my mind , clouding my judgment. I decided to plug on to soaking worship and pen down what I am feeling right now. This is my first step of healing recovery journey. I am in pain, so much pain. I don't know how to make sense of this entire situation. It is as if I am like a glass box and past traumas, memories are like zombies, trying to attack me all at once. Perhaps i need to gun every single zombie down and the city can restore its peace?  

Solution: Cry out to God. I surrender all these raw emotions to You. I don't want them. Help me. I pray for the peace of God to still and quiet my heart. May the joy of the Lord flood out these raw emotions and sustain me today, In Jesus' name.