What ending do I want for those who hurt me?

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I was drawn to the korean drama starred by Sung Hye Kyo. She took 20 years to exact revenge on the people who bullied her. This is secular way of handling people who hurt. The counterintuitive Christian way of handling such matter is release, let go and let God handle. To be honest, I am a human being. I also want every single who, especially the secondary school teacher, the scammer and syndicate to be tormented, tortured, go to hell for eternity. But having said that, I have spoken the human , carnal and fleshy thought. That is definitely not what God wants. Why should my quality of life be destroyed due to these people for 24 years! 24 years of my life gone. These are the 2 major events that totally destroyed me, rip my heart, smashed into smithereens. I became so disgruntled and bitter about life , depression and suicidal soon followed. That is why I like the drama, it showcased the deepest thoughts that I have towards those who have hurt me and I can do something about it. 

Having said that, I want to move on in life. I dont want unforgiveness to chain me. I dont have anger, bitterness and resentment to hold me down any longer. God, where are you? 

Prayers: Dear Heavenly Father, help me. I surrender all these carnal, fleshy thoughts about those people who hurt me into Your hands. Rewire my mind through Your words, heal my smithereen heart with Your love. I choose to forgive them for You have forgiven me with Your grace and mercy. I want to let go anger, bitterness, resentment, hatred, guilt and shame. Be with me today, especially in tender moments of loneliness, pain and guilt. In the most precious name of Jesus Christ I pray 


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