messages i would send to you but no contact for now

i dont think i can do this. i cant think of a future without you. i dont want a future without you. i can wait. i can wait for you to feel like you are a good partner. you are a good partner, its just hard. last august you told me that distance meant nothing when somebody meant everything. please dont tell me this is the end. im shaking. i dont want to tell anyone, i cant. please. we still loved each other through study abroad - a  6hr difference, a 6 hr plane ride where we could literally never see each other. this is only a 2 hr drive. why can't i be everything.