Meeting with a Counsellor regarding troubled marriage

I was on the peak of break. I just couldn't handle Kanika.

It was in the month of October/November 2020. Adobe has a service where we can talk to some professionals where we can discuss our personal problems.

I mentioned that I have suicidal thoughts, in troubled marriage. Need assistance. We did setup a meeting time.

So, for the first time, I was discussing my troubled marriage with someone unknown.

It was a lady. She listened to some of my problems. I told her, its becoming untolerable, and because of kids I'm not able to think about divorce. I narrated her few instances.

She advised me to take divorce. As, being in a bad relation will affect both of us, and kids will also be affected by our fights. She explained it well. And, I was 60% convinced. She told me that Kanika can also come and meet her either 1:1 or both of us with her.

I came back home stressed. Next day, I had booked an office for single day, as it was becoming difficult for me to stay at home. In the morning, I told her straight away, that I discussed with a counsellor, and she advised to take divorce.

Her face changed in a moment. When I told her, if you are going to be like this, we are separating. She started crying. I left.

I thought, what a change. Few days back, how rudely she was behaving with me and was in favor of separation.

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I was really surprised that she is upset listening to this. As, few days back she was very comfortable.

Evening, plan change

As I came back from office. I was kind of charged my thought, again because of kids.