Journal Entry: December 19, 2024
Today, I found myself reflecting on the journey of starting my own company. It's a strange mix of emotions, there's a sense of attachment that comes with it. I often think about the connections I used to have and how much I miss them. I've learned to set boundaries. Though know my limits.
Last night, I wrote a poem and shared it on my Instagram story. It was about nostalgia, about missing the person I used to be. Seeing someone who reminded me of my old self brought back memories of how sweet I was back then. It's bittersweet, really. I know I have to protect myself, and I believe I'm ready to let go of things, even if I have a fondness for them. Letting people go has always been part of my character.
Today, I experienced a swirl of mixed emotions of happiness intertwined with sadness. It felt like a gentle tide, washing over me, reminding me of the beauty and fragility of life. I could feel an energy in the air, a reminder of the connections I cherish, but it also stirred up a sense of longing for what once was. Perhaps it was heightened by the fact that I'm on my period, a time when emotions often run deeper and more vividly.
I was reminded of my own past and how easy it is to slip into feelings of loneliness. It's a familiar feeling, yet it carries a certain beauty, a bittersweet reminder of growth and change. I reminded myself that I have my friends, even if they're far away. We can still communicate and laugh together, just like we used to. Last night's talk with my best friend was a beautiful reminder of that connection, a moment of joy amidst the waves of emotion.
Loneliness is a constant companion, always trying to pull me back, but I know I have the strength to resist it. I'm learning to navigate these feelings, to acknowledge them without letting them consume me. I'm grateful for the friendships I have, and I'm determined to keep moving forward, embracing the complexity of my emotions as part of my journey.