i wish to die

actually, it's been 2 years since I have wished for this. yet, as none listens, I will wish again, and I heard the best way to manifest is to write so here we go

i want to die

i want to die

i want to die

i want to die

i want to die

i want to die

i want to die

i want to die

i want to die

i don't like me, my family, my friends, my country, the people around me. 

i don't like whati look like, what i eat, what i drink, how I live and what i am

there is no purpose or reason for me to exist

people who used to like me, don't like me anymore

i have grown into a fat monster, a mentally ill person none can expect.

they make the same mistakes

the one ignored, is me. always.

so, just once in my life, i want to be ignored. not temporarily but permanently. i want to die and never come back on this earth ever again.