Growing

I turned 21 last month and it feels like life slapped me in the face with adulting. I have experienced health issues, living independently and failing at it miserably, I’ve disappointed multiple people and caused inconvenience to lots. going through a terrible heartbreak which is causing my health to deteriorate and slow down my body’s healing process and so much more. My relationship with my mother feels strained, I’m just so tired and it feels like there is no way out. I feel sad and hopeless all the time even though i have soo many reasons not to feel so. I knew adulting was hard, but I literally feel like I’m drowning in it. I want to live life to the fullest, and experience soo many things but i feel so scared. I don’t know if it’s normal to feel this way or am i experiencing something else and should get myself checked out.

Any way here’s a cat pic to cheer up