Yesterday, I came to know that RJ is leaving. I felt relieved, with mixed feelings. 

This single man has destroyed PS's team single handedly. I can count people who left the company just because of him. I too, left the project because of him. And, was about to leave the team for second time.

And, now he himself going out. That should be a good relief sign in team. Lot of people must be happy to hear this.

If I had to keep a memory of him, it must be that he took good care of his father. I don't want to remember him for his wrong work ethics, the politics, the rudeness, and bla-bla. 

He was such a negative person. I used to avoid him every single time. He did direct or indirect politics with me, with too cheap actions too.

Once he asked in serious tone, that what is the difference between linked-list and array. I found his fundamentals always low. If you see his code written, you would rather want to delete that code. Long long functions, hard coding, .... OMG.

I was much bullied by him in my initial days at Adobe. I saved some people from his bulliness. 

I will write in details, about his cheap politics that he did.

But, I'm too happy that he is leaving the team. I hope positive days will come.

RJ leaving - Man who was Responsible for most of Attrition

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Be myself

Nung bata ako ustong gusto ko ung ulan, pwede mong sabihin na gusto ko parin sya ngayon. Pero hindi na katulad nung dat due to being a grownup. Everytime its rain, I didnt listen to some music and sit on our balcony. Instead, I catch water leaks off the roof. Wla akong sariling kwarto so I use my lolas room to study. Her room had a big waterfall, kaya kapag umuulan need naming magwalis o magtimba at maghintay tumigil ang ulan. 

Thats why I invite my friends when its summer, not rainy months. Di ko ngarin sila naiinvite sa bahay kase tangina ung mga tao dun ang problema. Pero kung tutuusin parehas lang. I hate rain

I Hate Rain

Let me start writing my journey towards building startups or micro/nano-websites.

I started my career in 2007, where my starting salary was 18490 Rs, from NEC-HCL Noida. I was on cloud-9. As it was my dream to get a job, coming from a small town, where nobody guided me. It was the happiest day till that day in my life.

I got married in 2009, quite early. (Will write in separate thread about this). 

Then, I re-met my college friend Sushan Rungta. He was an outstanding guy since beginning. Anyway, he pitched me an idea to work on. At that time, he was working on clickindia.com

He introduced another friend of his, Deepanker Agarwal.  They were doing MBA together at that time.

He wanted to build an education-related website/portal where anybody could study. The idea was to include everything for every grade/class. And, Deepanker brought the name: "KG-se-PG". 

Its KG (Kindergarten) se(to) PG (Post-Graduate)

We registered domain, kgsepg.com (Although, its not with us anymore). We took an office on rent, in sector-63.

Remember my salary was around 25K at that time, with married life. And, I was involved in unknown territory. 

It was basically, slideshare.com of today.

So, it was born. We clicked some pics on that day. I will post the pics from my hard disk later.

We did hire an intern as well. Our role was as follows:

Deepanker, the marketing/business head. He brought really good ideas.

Sushan, in advisory role. Since he was involved in another companies. He did not want to get public.

And, our intern. I forgot his name. I fired him after 4-5 months.

I was a C++ developer then. And, Sushan introduced me to web technologies at that time. I had a full-time job, and recently married. I started learning Drupal (a CMS in PHP), CSS, web-servers, and lot of other things like SEO etc. I used to work till 3 AM in night. Then, office in morning.

When we took the office space. I used to go there straight after office.

We did hire a designer, and get our first design ready. It was an awesome design. I will see, if I still have that.

And, I did that live in few days. Designer was also surprised that we did it live in short span of time. I learnt a lot of things, did lot of automation.

Deepanker used to find content, put it live on website. 

I developed lot of things, some of them are:

A small app to show those flash pages, with browsable options

Then, any document to pdf/flash to images. We moved away from flash, then to images.

Steal any content from educational websites, like scrapping or downloading their public copies.

My Startup Kida - Madness Since 2009 - KGsePG.com

These days, I do not feel like doing anything. I waste time a lot.

May be its because there is no work at office. Its a wrong thing, thats why I decided to change.

But yes, I do want to retire from this rat-race.

Want to Retire!

Life was going so monotonous. I thought of meeting friends. Its hard to get everybody on time. But, luckily by calling few times, everybody decided to meet in Noida.

It was so good to see all of them: Gaurav Verma, Nikhil Murria, Ashish Sharma

Ashish was at his best. He is always like that. He is the CEO (Chief Entertainment Officer).

We talked a lot about college life, current life, we talked about working on some idea. We drank a lot of beer. Verma told them about my salary, they were happy and surprised. I paid the bill of around 9K.

It was really so good to see all of them. I felt like I was so happy after a long time. My cheeks were hurting, by continuously smiling.

Nikhil and Ashish talked about Bhola. haha, cant write about it.

We were there for a good 5-6 hours. We laughed, and we shared our lives. We forgot to share our personal lives and personal problems with anyone. And, with heavy heart, we left from there.

Old Friends Meet After Long-long time - Awesome Time

As RahulB also announced his resignation. We were invited to a meeting by Parminder in morning. Only direct reportees of Piyush.

I thought, it must be a project update meeting. i went to Piyush about the agenda. He kind of ignored. We went to meeting.

As we were going, Suman gave a smile and said something which gave some fishy feeling. Meeting started. Ashish also joined online. We were, Vaibhav, Ashish, Me. Parminder said, Piyush also gave his resignation. We were shocked. I looked at Piyush, he smiled. 

They asked us to keep it private untill mail arrived. But, how can one hide news like this. Vaibhav told almost everyone. That day, we had a lunch party. I also told Parag. He was also shocked.

I was not doing anything much, everything was handled by you people. I was not learning much. His reasons were almost similar to RahulB. 

It was unbelievable news, difficult to absorb. In 1-2 days, everybody came to know about this. And, nobody actually worked for that week. 

People were gathered in a meeting room, and were just discussing this. Everybody was openly talking about leaving. 

Few days back, Piyush was asking everyone about not to leave. Kind of taking note of everyone. Now, he himself resigned. 

Suman is the obvious most beneficial person after this news. RahulB/Ruchir/Piyush resigned almost together. She is the obvious choice for his predecessor. But, her style of management is different. The road will be tough for her. 

And, it will be very hard time for Suman to fill that gap. As everybody will try to compare her decisions with Piyush. But, its true that our life is also very difficult after Piyush.

Piyush also announced resignation - Team Switch - Unexpected happened

From continuation to My Decision to Leave 

Few days back, Suman came to me and asked whats going on. I told her that I'm not liking the work. She said, yes the work is not for your level. She acknowledged. She asked if I'm looking out for positions. I said Yes. I think she got a little shock. But, its a part of corporate life.

Today, I conveyed my selection to Suman. I also send message to Parminder. Suman was ready for it.

She had a meeting with Piyush that day. And, I got a message from Piyush. See

I was like come on, how come. You are acting like GOD. He knew that I will be looking for change. 

Since Piyush also left. But, this makes one  thing for sure that he left because of his growth. He should have become Director long back. But, security org has little scope for going up the ladder.

Well this small incidence raised some points for Piyush :)

Message from Piyush

Since the time Piyush has gone. I'm not able to find any reason to stay here. There is no work for me. I'm feeling like not-required. 

The more senior you become, more responbilities you got. I was not to find any such responsibility. Everybody was doing their work. There was no work for my level. My skills are getting waste, I wasn't learning anything at all. 

I think many other people are also getting frustrated, due to quality of work. I also realized, I'm not doing any real work from last around 1 year.

I've decided to look out for other open positions inside Adobe. I also thought of going out. But, it takes lot of time in study. I did not want to study all data structure from ground-zero.

I thought of looking for internal positions. I found few, and talked to few.

I gave interview for Praveen's team. Ajay's team gave me a yes without any interview.

I was confused, but it looked to be good. Work is good.

My decision to Leave

Heyyo!! I feel totally bad...very very bad and am here to vent everything duh! Where do I even start?! So far it hadn't been good and now it's too bad. What are you worried about you ask, I would say "what not to WORRY about". Everything is a mess....now the lyrics I'm a Mess, am a loser, am a hater, am a user- sync in perfectly. HAHAHAHA. I can't just go and be transparent, telling everything to someone. Because it feels sooooooo worse. The emotions are mixed. I want to cry but am angry. Am worried and patting my own shoulders, bluntly believing that someday everything is going to be alright. 

Being all happy and joyful for 3 days and the 4th day comes some bad news followed by hard to bery hard days on the 5th and the 6th. Then I would feel nothing on the 7th day - a system shut down. 

I have read somewhere that the size of our hearts is equal to that of our palms. Not sure if that's true, but if that is the case, then it's a wonder. Common, how much can such a little heart bear? Its keeps on getting heavier every day. 

Just....just want to cry out loud, but I can't. If I do, then there is going to be a soul who is going to be worried about me. She might start thinking that she is building up extra burdens on my shoulders. But it's okay. I am okay and I want her to not just be okay. I want her to be happy.    

Am realizing a lot of things lately. From the outside, everything and everyone looks so good. But we will never know what we are enduring. If only I had someone who would never ever judge me or my lifestyle, I wouldn't be here....hehe. But it's not that am in some kind of depression or that am alone. No no. Not at all! I have everyone- an amazing family who are always there protecting me and fantastic friends..well, I have earned great friendships all the years, who are always there as my backbone, and also a big source of power- my ANPANMAN, my Wonder Woman. 

Okay so now I would like to put an end to my ranting....to conclude on am awaiting PEACE *showing you the V symbol*. Don't worry about me, am alright..really...completely alright. Nothing's wrong. Everything good!

*THE END* to my first write-up                                                                        *Clap clap*

My first write up!

So far, we haven't asked Daksh to bring some stuff for house from a shop, by himself.

Yesterday, I asked him to get a packet of Poha from the society shop. He was excited, and kept smiling by thinking about it. He feels good by doing responsible things.

I gave him the money, ask to bring Rajdhani Poha, count the change, come back. If found any trouble, just come back, do not go outside the shopping arcade.

Inside, I was also worried about him. He went well, and brought it well. 

He felt proud. But, the thing is that the Poha he brought was having lot of worms. It was none of his mistake, its due to the weather, these things are caught by worms.

Daksh training - Get Stuff from market #firsttime

Girls love their fathers. My girl surely did.

She gets never irritated from me. She always want to be with me.

On holidays, I used to work in other room. She usually sleeps from 3-6 daily. These days, she wake up at around 4 and come to me, and sleep near me. She hold my hand, and slept. I just loved her presence and the love she does is unmatchable.

Papa's Girl - True Lines

So, RahulB also resigned and he is doing a team switch in DX. It was a big news as he was one of key member of our team.

There are rumours whenever someone leaves. 

I want something new to learn, I was not learning anything here. Things are constant.

So, after so much calculations. We have some other theories.

There are lot of changes in top management in security, that there are some ego issues.

There were some hot email exchanged between him and management. Looks like, nobody was liking him. They stopped replying to Rahul's email.

Anyway, he was a nice person. And, he provided really helpful insights to projects. Although, he had some temper issues. He sometimes unnecessarily disturbed lot of people, caused panic situations unnecessarily.

RahulB Resigned - Team Switch

ggoogogog

 Yesterday we decided to bomb the place after all. First, a
spider jumped out and scared the shit out of me, and we have a lot of little
flying bugs due to the humidity. We only had to be out for two hours, so we
drove around and then ended up at BK.   

Someone was definitely next door as T noticed someone painting
their carport the other day. They also shut their bathroom window.   

Anyway, I was a little jittery but it was my own fault for indulging in a wee bit too much fudge. So my heart was a little racy yesterday and I felt warm. And then the fatigue set in big time. Even though I only slept 5 hours yesterday, I started off with decent enough energy. In the middle of my
day, though, it started hitting me.   

Finally fed up with the extreme fatigue that’s been worse
for about a year now, I decided to let my docs in on it. They made a new case
for that as well as for hypertension. They asked me to take some blood pressure
readings for them and I did. It was probably high, though, because of the stress
and extra sodium. I told them it’s usually lower when I wake up and that my old
doc decided against blood pressure medication because she felt it would make me
dizzy since my readings are better at the beginning of my day. Plus, there’s
the medication phobia. Yes, that’s gotten better, but I’m still prone to side effects,
whether I like it or not and I don’t want to go on medication at this time.   

They asked if I had ever partaken in a sleep study because
they wondered if I could have sleep apnea. I told them no and that it would be
hard for me to get meaningful results in a sleep study because of my unique
sleeping situation where I have trouble falling asleep and have to sleep with
the sound machine on. I guess I might be able to do one eventually at home if
it doesn’t cost too much, but I doubt I have sleep apnea. T pointed out there’s
a thing on Fitbit that measures your oxygen rate in your sleep. It’s a graph in
which blue is better than orange. I only had a few orange peaks. Nothing that
smacks of an unhealthy trend.   

They asked about snoring, and I do snore, but lightly. I’m
not like T where you can hear it through walls. Thunder didn’t wake me up as
expected last night, but a power failure woke me up. It was the second one we
had, too. The first one happened when I was awake. I hope I’m not going to get
as many wake-up calls from that as I do thunder. Anyway, I woke up the instant
the power went out and I did notice that yes, I was softly snoring.   

I also filled out some standard questionnaires and was asked
about alcohol consumption and whether or not I’ve ever had any EKG or stress
test. I told them I had both in 2016 and then they asked about anyone having
serious heart issues before the age of 50 in my family. I told them about my
father and the fact that one of my grandfathers died of a heart attack just
over 50.   

They’re going to be sending me to the lab. They want to check my TSH and also my iron levels and look for antibodies that could indicate either infections or inflammation. It will be interesting to see what my TSH is which I’d guess is 11-point-whatever.   

I don’t have a guess as to what could be causing my fatigue,
but I don’t think it’s serious. I want to say it’s my TSH but then why didn’t I
have such fatigue when I was first diagnosed? I was so tired that I slept for
nearly 10 hours and got a good sleep score. As usual, though, I didn’t wake up
feeling that refreshed.   

I’m just so glad I have this team to exchange all this
information with. I could never have done this through a portal with a regular
doctor/patient setup.   

So I peeled off the nail stickers from my big toes expecting
quite a mess underneath, but nope. The lacquer really does kill fungus. My
fingernails have me completely mystified though. I still see redness and I
still have sensitivity where the fingertip meets the nail. If it was just a
chemical reaction, shouldn’t it be better by now? But I don’t see how a fungus
or infection of any kind could spring up that fast either. I still have plenty
of lacquer on hand and tons of refills, though, if it doesn’t go away.   

After Burger King (I only got hash browns) we stopped at
Walgreens. I got some wine but no treats. I’ve had enough sugar. Since we still
had time to kill, we sat in the driveway for a while. The humidity gives all
the houses a drenched look as if it just finished raining. Once the sun comes
up, it dries it up.   

I came up with a cover story to have M contact N, but
she never replied to the message. I’m sure she saw it, even though I can’t see
that she did. I said… I believe we could be related. My father was Robert Lucke
and was married to my mother for 20 years. Somewhere during the marriage, he
took up with a mistress. Although I can’t get my mother to talk about it, he
supposedly started a family with this woman until he died of a heart attack in
her bed. They had two daughters, Vivian and Marion. They would be in their 50s
or 60s today. I live in New Mexico, but his mistress is from Europe. I was
never told which country, but seeing the German writing on your profile makes
me wonder if it could be you. The name and the age in your photos looks right
as well.   

I don’t know if she suspects I’m behind the account. I added
some religious memes and chose a royalty cover photo of a Hispanic-looking
woman with three kids. There is a hand holding beach shells for the profile
picture.   

I’m now unsure as far as the termite goes. I went through
everything that’s public and she has shit spanning back to 2010. Of course, one
of the posts had to be the photos she took of me when we visited her that I
specifically asked that she not make public, but I don’t care at this point. Most
of what’s public is the usual shit she would post. Self-comforting memes, memes
about being screwed over, praise for the Sarasite, her mommy and Daddy in
heaven, the angels that watch over her, etc.   

It could be that she's had this stuff public all along and
didn’t recently make it public, but I just never noticed when we were
connected. I didn’t have another account to look in on her as I had no reason
to. I also wouldn’t notice if she’s allowed anyone to comment on her posts all
along. So she still might not have seen the message and might not have recently
changed any settings.   

I can’t get rid of the pictures she took and shared, but I
really wish there was a way to get rid of all comments and likes between a
person. I don’t understand why they’re showing up since I’ve blocked her.
Blocking is supposed to delete all likes and comments from the person, but
apparently, it doesn’t. That’s fucking Facebook for you. It’ll take time, but I
could slowly go through my activity log and delete some things.  

 I’m going to be sending my docs a message letting them know
I’ve been doing well as far as anxiety goes and am starting just one 75 a week,
with the rest being 88. While I’m at it, I’m going to mention the fatigue. I’ll
explain that I’ve been having trouble falling asleep and staying asleep more
often, not waking up refreshed most days, and see what they say. 

It’s strange how I could sleep 8 hours two days ago and felt
tired the first few hours of my day while I just got up from 5 hours of sleep
and I feel more rested. 

I love it when I remember enough of my dreams to write about
them, even if they’re not good. T and I were living in a tiny house somewhere.
There was just one room on one side and a bathroom and a kitchenette on the
other. I slept on a twin bed along the back wall and he had a twin bed along
the side wall. 

A young woman in her 20s or 30s that we had met previously
came to the door while he was asleep. I let her in, even though I wasn’t sure I
liked her very much. She just didn’t seem all there. She stayed briefly and
then returned later. At this time, she lay down on my bed and pulled the
comforter over her head. Then she started nonstop rambling about everything and
nothing. I could clearly see she was bipolar, paranoid, and delusional. At one
point she mentioned something about having to train me. Sick of listening to it
and having no tolerance for the mentally ill any more than rude people, I said
I had been up since 4 in the morning and asked her to leave, which she did. 

I also had a dream about Johnson for the first time in ages.
She and I were having a friendly chat and she told me she would marry me in 10
to 15 years. She knew I was still with T and in her mind, she may have
thought he would be gone then. 

Realizing she never told me her first name as she was
walking away, I called out “Rachel!” to see if she would turn around. She
didn’t, though. 

Too bad I could never find her on Facebook. I don’t harbor
any hard feelings anymore and I would love to say hello and see how her life
has been even though I’m sure she wouldn’t reply whether or not she blocked me.
I realize that as far as her blowing me off, that’s just how people are, not
that people shouldn’t keep their word unless they have a good excuse not to. 

I’ve only heard the dog once in the last few days, but I
think that’s because I haven’t been around in the mid-afternoon to early
evening when it seems to be heard the most. I heard a few barks yesterday, but
nothing too loud or annoying. Still dread it when the weather cools down and
people open their windows. I know I’m gonna hear the damn thing bark every time
someone goes into the kitchen and it gets all excited in anticipation of being
fed or when someone comes to the door or they go out somewhere and leave the
mutt home. 

My nails aren’t quite as sensitive after what I suspect was
a chemical burn from the gel remover, but I do have discoloration. Not the
yellow and brownish discoloration I had from the fungus, but more like a red
irritated look. It extends from the middle of the nails to the tips. Hopefully,
it will grow out and I’ll be as good as new again. I’m not doing anything else
to my nails for a while. 

Mrs. T still says it’s been quieter there “for some
reason” and that still bugs me, even though I know it can’t be as quiet as it
is here. Not when you’re on a busy street in a big city. And like the trash
collectors are suddenly using the smaller, quieter trucks they use here where a
guy jumps off the back to grab the trash and they’re in and out? I wouldn’t be
surprised if there were fewer planes and projects, though. I’ve been up for an
hour and I’ve already heard four planes as late as it is. 

She says the only dog she sometimes hears is M’s.
Figures G would shut her dog up after we leave. 

It hit me as I was falling asleep that S could
have allowed public comments sooner or later than she started making more
things public. I remember having A check her account because I was curious if
she made anything public about me and she couldn’t see much of anything. So
yeah, she could have started allowing comments from anyone right after I sent
the messages. Discovering this gives me a little more hope that the messages
really did go through and were seen. Well, I knew they went through because I
saw that much. I just had no way to tell if Facebook blocked them from being
able to view the messages, or if they didn’t get them. As funny as it may
sound, I really do hope her allowing public comments are because of me, LOL.
There’s just something amusing about her doing this in hopes of “getting” me and
me knowing she’ll never get what she wants. If I knew T and I were about to
die, I would certainly leave a message, even though there still wouldn’t be
anything she could do about it from a legal standpoint. I just wouldn’t want
T to find out about it somehow so that’s why I’m quiet for now. 

I’m still a little surprised she would risk embarrassing
herself with what I may say about her, but I guess hoping to get me is worth whatever
that may be. There are plenty of people out there willing to spite themselves to
spite others. My guess is she’s either hoping I’ll write something she can
legally use against me or she wants me to reach out so she can reply with
“sensitive,” false and nasty “info.” Something like, “You’ve been in jail.
You’ve been in funny farms. You’re going to be arrested,” as if that would
really hurt, LOL.  

As I said, I would gladly return the trolling as immature as
it may be and as much as I’d be stooping to their level if it weren’t for T.
I would just keep it legal. She really could have gotten her ass in trouble for
threatening me in a recording in her own voice. She only did it because she
knew I wouldn’t bother to waste time reporting her. It was still a daring but
bold move on her part. A stupid one too. 

Damn the fucking motorcycles blazing by the estate! I know it’s
Friday night but still. It’s the middle of the night. Have some fucking
respect.  

So today, I wish I could look back one day to still analyse the misery of my life.

I assume I'm in a tunnel hoping to see the light at its end, as usually said.

I'm lost with no-one which makes it look like I got dropped from the heaven like in those films of terminators we watched while growing up 

It's not as if I have no family needless to remind myself my mother is no more, but everyone seems distant, yes, indeed they are. I'm not the emotional type and I'm not overthinking, I just hope this blurry life of mine will be crystal clear one day.

Hope to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

OK, I give up. I give up! I totally surrender to whatever
the fuck has been cursing my sleep. No more trying to soundproof the bedroom.
It's totally hopeless. No matter where we live, no matter what we do, things
always find a way to wake me up. If I was 100% deaf there would suddenly be sonic
booms or low-flying helicopters. Or maybe I would have more nightmares and have
to get up to pee more often if I didn't wake up more just because.  

Even when nothing is waking me up, I'm having more trouble
staying asleep. I don't know if that's just an age thing or if it could be
connected to the increase in my medication. I don't think it's on the
medication if I had to guess but if it is, I’ll probably get used to it in
time.  

But why bother to reinforce windows or dog houses if it's
all worthless anyway? Manufactured homes are practically made of cardboard.
First, the fucking mower woke me up. By the time he ran to the window to see
which one it was, it was gone. I'm guessing the stand-up. I'm sure that one
will be around more often too, just like I’ve been suspecting it will be. I'll
raise the volume of the Sleep Sounds and add an earplug, but I'm sure that
during the times I'm sleeping on mowing day, which is about every three weeks,
I'll get woken up no matter what. I don't think there's anything that can block
the stand-up in this kind of house because it's just so fucking loud.  

I really do have to put more effort into trying to sleep at
night only. If I'm going to be tired half of the time anyway, why not? I'm
usually up between 16 to 18 hours. So if I set the alarm for 6:00 AM, I'm going
to get 6 to 8 hours of sleep even though it's not literally 6 to 8 hours as
I've learned. We don't sleep the entire time we're in bed. If I crash at
midnight and get up at 9, I probably got 7 to 8 hours of sleep. What's pushing
my schedule forward regularly is that I can't always fall asleep at the same
time or get up at the same time. It's almost always later and later. If I could
at least sleep at night during storm season and when they're mowing more often,
that would really help a lot. But now I'm wondering if I'm even going to be
able to sleep through the motorcycle anymore when it returns. It's almost like my
bedroom is letting in even more sound as if to punish me for trying to fight
it. 

The second wake-up call came in the form of thunder. It was
loud and continuous for almost 2 hours. This is the way it's going to be just
about every day for months. I'm truly amazed that I'm not more tired than I am.
I was actually more tired yesterday. So much so that I didn't even do any VR
time or drink wine. I don't drink wine when I'm tired for some reason. I tried
to stay up until the mowers came, figuring that whatever is cursing my sleep
would be sure to have them come late. They usually come between 9:30 and 11:30,
but sure enough, I couldn’t hold out past 9 and they came at 11:15. So while I
crashed at 9 and got up at 7:45, I didn't even sleep for 7 hours. So if I
listen to my audiobook from 8 to 10 and then sleep from 10 to 6, I'll probably
get 5-6 hours of sleep on average. Hopefully, the time spent laying there
listening to audiobooks will help. 

I stupidly gave Nature Sounds another chance, but they still
stop playing after a while. I don't understand why the devs won't do anything
to fix the problem. I'm not the only one that's complained about the cut-outs.
I'll use Sleep Sounds, but the best it will do is drown out little stuff. It's
not going to do anything for loud motors or thunder. 

This month’s VZ challenge is to get to know the VZ team by
taking guided tours around their neck of the woods. You don't hear their voices
speaking, but there are bubble pop-ups that give you the highlights of the
areas. I'm in eastern MA right now. I don't miss the winters there, but I miss
those spacious houses with breathing room around them! Stuck up or not, I liked
Longmeadow. It was Springfield that I hated.  

Anyway, I was doing a Thailand trip before the challenges
came out. I'll get back to Thailand after I do these challenges. They're fun to
do, even though I would rather do something useful than just meet the team like
planting trees or feeding hungry kids whose poor parents should have been smart
enough not to have them or finding cures for diseases.  

J said that even though we're on opposite sides of the
coin where abortion is concerned, she still stands for women's rights and feels
the government has crossed the line (the focus should be on school shootings). But
if she doesn't have control over her own body, what rights does she have that most
people don't already have? Women can vote, work, own property, play sports, and
do pretty much the same things everyone else can do. She just doesn't always
have much say over her body, but then most of us don't. No one asks for sleep
disorders, birth defects, or autoimmune diseases, and for a few years In the
90s, I didn't ask to be exposed to DES. 

Still in a good mood, despite the frustration of the sleep
issues. I don't want to be beating on meat while he’s sleeping, but tomorrow
I'll decide whether or not to do the ribs I got in the cast iron skillet or the
cooker. I'm thinking I might try the skillet. These are boneless but cheaper.
For now, I'm making fried clams and I'm gonna do a veggie stir fry with the
garlic parmesan seasoning I got. 

No Use Fighting It

As my age is increasing, I'm realizing the value of an outstation trip. It refreshes you completely, and relaxes your mind.

This year, I was trying to go somewhere. But, I was not sure where!

In my office, lot of people were going for vacations, by taking around 10 days leaves. I was like, is it me only working? I also have a life. That was the trigger point. I also sent email about my leaves. I made my plans later. 

Few months back, I talked to my cousin brother Raman. I casually told him that let me know once you plan your trip. I will also go. He actually reminded me and asked me to come with him. He gave few options like Leh Ladakh, Coorg, Sikkim etc. I talked to Kanika, she was not interested in going with him. She is always like this. We always wanted to go with some other family, when other family gets ready, she finds some or other issues. They are not of our age, their kids are not of our kid's age. I'm not comfortable talking to them, bla bla...

I was like, ok, you make the plan. I told her the same. That, its always good to go with some other family, and they are our relative. Come on. I told Raman bhaiya NO, with some excuse.

Few days later, when our plan was not taking shape. I forcefully made my plan with Raman bhaiya, convinced Kanika. And, our planning started.

Raman bhaiya told me straight that I spend full. He is a rich business man, self made man. I also had my budget. But, I thought, lets do it. I was ready to match their expenses.

I made all the planning. This time, Kanika did not help me a single bit.

I booked the resorts, booked the flight. Our booking was just 4-5 days before.

Our flight was on 22nd June 2022, where we all were going on same day, same flight. But, I extended my trip a bit. Raman bhaiya was coming back on 26th June, I was coming on 28th June. It was quite a long trip.

The plan was to spend 3 days in Coorg, and 3 days in Ooty. But, I booked resort in Coorg only. I thought of plan later for rest of the days.

Due to heavy bookings, we could book only 2 days resort. I could find another day in the same resort. So, I booked that. Raman bhaiya told me that he will spend rest of the days in Coorg, relaxing in some good resort. We spent roughly 1.5 hours searching for their resort online. Finally, they booked a really expensive resort. 

Coorg Wilderness, with around 1.10L for 2 days only. He thought a bit, but then he said, its OK.

I booked the initial transfer taxi as well.

Daksh, Bhavika were excited. It was Bhavika's first flight. She was hugging me tightly each time, I tell her that we are going in an aeroplane.

And, here we go. Its 22nd June 2022. I booked a taxi for airport through some local vendor, it came on time. We had 3 checkin bags, 2 handbags. I also took one small bag for printouts, vouchers , IDs etc.

6:35 AM was the time, we left home. I parked all of our bikes inside our house last night. We had 3 of them now :)

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Trip to Coorg - Scotland of India - June 2022

In continuation with our Trip Starts 2022 

We started at 6:35 in taxi for Delhi airport, I called Raman bhaiya as wakeup call at 4:45 AM.

We met in airport, it was a good day. We did check-in. Daksh did some vomit, it started her vomit journey as well :)

I saw Raman bhaiya with his long selfie stick. He did click a lot of pictures, all with his selfie stick. We did check-in together. He gave me cash of 1L, as I did all the bookings, it was around half the payment.

Trip to Coorg 2022 - Day-1

 I was up for 19.5 hours and only slept for 6.5 hours, so I'm
having another tired day. My God, I am so, so fucking sick of this shit!
Why can't I just have fucking energy most days instead of some days?!  

OMG, am I seeing correctly? I do believe I am! Speech to
text is actually printing out my swear words instead of starring them. Wow, you
mean I actually have freedom of expression now in my own Word documents? How amazing.
Doubt it will be that way in emails. 

Really hoping the mowers aren't late in case they wake me up
right after I fall asleep. I'd hate to crash at around 10:00 or 10:30 and have
them wake me up an hour later. Of course, that depends on what mower they're
using. 

Speaking of twisted families, Andy told me some things I
didn't know. With him being four years older and my family keeping most things
from me, he knew a lot more of what went on than I did. After Andy graduated
high school, his mother left his father for four or five years. She went to
stay with Marla in Atlantic City, which was where she was at the time.  

Andy encouraged his father to date other women believing his
mother wasn't coming back. He only dated a woman once. Andy really liked her
and went to spend the weekend with her and her kids. He had so much fun there
that he ended up staying for a few weeks. His dad, however, decided that it was
his mother he loved so he stood alone until she returned. They stayed together
until he died. 

I don't remember much about Al as a kid, but I definitely
didn't like him as an adult. I remember one time I called his house looking for
Andy when I was in Phoenix and he was home visiting and he spoke to me in such
a snotty tone. I just didn't tell Andy about it. 

Then there was Phil. That was Norma’s first husband. Despite
the fact that Norma was considered a hot blue-eyed blonde back in her prime,
Phil had an affair And died of a heart attack in bed with his mistress. 

Apparently, Phil had a whole other family with this woman
and Michelle was asking Norma about it, but Norma refused to discuss it. Can't
blame her for that one! 

Phil also scared the shit out of Andy as a kid by saying
things like how he would put him in a box and ship him to China, and he said it
as if he was dead serious. So I'd say that heart attack was his karma.  